My darling girl and i. Isn’t she precious?
We’re heading into the 3rd month of her 6 month stay here in the UK with me. Prior to this, due to our long, lonnng distance, we had only spent a maximum of 1 month in the same place, despite having been in a relationship for 2.5 years. We had no doubt that we would love to live together for longer, and get on just fine; but only now do we see exactly how perfect it is. It really is. Waking up and falling asleep together without goodbyes looming just a week or two in the future. Always being able to reach out and touch one another when we wish to. Sharing our daily lives together as we should be.
I never want her to leave, and for now i refuse to think about how we will have to return to thousands of miles of separation again in a few months.
It doesn’t matter right now. I have her curled up in my arms, and that’s what matters today.
when I commit to a person, I FUCKING COMMIT. if their depression, anxiety or life comes knocking, you bet your ass i’m at the door with a double sided axe waiting for a good fight.
you cant expect people, to always be happy, even if they are in love. because life doesn’t stop for anyone. But you can be there for the good fight.
So it’s New Year’s morning, 6.30 am, and I’m laid on the hard floor of my best friend’s apartment. My girl is next to me, softly dreaming in what i believe to be the deepest sleep known to man (perhaps helped by copious amounts of wine). She’s laying on one arm, hand curled like a baby, and in the other is my right hand, clutched gently and being held hostage against her sweet face… This leaves me writing this with my left hand, because I don’t have the heart to pull my slightly more useful hand away; and I honestly have no desire to. I can feel the love I have for this woman filling me from top to toe; she’s the most beautiful person I’ve ever seen, and I wish I could capture this moment in something more vivid than memory and more accurate than photograph. Her skin is soft and completely perfect- the sweetest caramel, unblemished as though not a single chemical has ever dared touch it. Her closed eyes exude peace and security. The lips that were built to convey her words are rested, holding a thousand kisses of mine, and telling me they are awaiting millions more. I will gladly give them. These lips know a lot about me; they have claimed secrets from my skin that no others on this earth have ever discovered, nor ever will, and i can see that these pieces of my story- our story- are safe within them.
This woman is an angel, if ever one were to exist. I swear, i have one here. We are entering another year together; this will be our third; and she has already been there for me through the toughest times I have ever experienced. She has also, undoubtedly, given me the best times I have ever experienced. I just hope I have given her the same.
She IS my love. She IS my other half. Without her, I would be less than myself- incomplete. To feel so much love as I look at her stunning face puzzles me, actually… How can one person feel so much for another? How does it work? I guess I know, of course, when it comes down to it. This is how it’s supposed to be. This is what love makes you feel. The desire to keep her safe, to make her happy. To look at her, even when she is asleep and those intelligent eyes are hidden from me, and feel such a powerful connection. The fear that I may, unintentionally, ever do less than keep her safe and make her happy. I hope I am enough for her. I want to be enough for her, just as she is more than enough for me.
She is my sweetheart, my soul, and as we enter another year into our journey, I want to say thankyou. Thankyou to her, and thankyou to the universe for allowing me the pleasure of caring for this beautiful person; her heart, body and mind; and allowing mine to be cared for by her. I know I’m in the best hands.
Here’s to 2014. With an incredible family, great friends, and my darling girl; who is both family and friend, and one hundred things more.
May we forever do each other justice, and remain happy and united throughout.
Te amo, Paola. Beyond infinity.
I’m in a hotel room near Heathrow with my girlfriend, waiting for her to wake up so we can get some food.
Today finally arrived!!
This is what makes the hard part of an LDR so worth it; if anyone ever asks. Really appreciating being with them.